11 Years later, after Moses had grown up, he went out to his own people and observed their forced labor. He saw an Egyptian beating a Hebrew, one of his people.12 Looking all around and seeing no one, he struck the Egyptian dead and hid him in the sand.
10 Therefore, go. I am sending you to Pharaoh so that you may lead My people, the Israelites, out of Egypt.”
11 But Moses asked God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and that I should bring the Israelites out of Egypt?”
Moses was sure at one point that he was the man to rescue Israel from the abuse of the Egyptians all by himself.
With conviction and passion he did not stand idly by, but rose up to kill an Egyptian found oppressing Israel.
Then doubt and fear set in and Moses fled.
Later, after years in the desert, Moses was not so sure he was the one to deliver anyone from anything. Even if God was going with him to help him do it. Even if God were to ask him to do it.
The same man had confidence, conviction and cowardice.
We are often tossed about from victory lane to the valley of the shadow, but by God’s grace we are what we are and we are determined to make sure that grace was not given in vain.