day no. 15,620: no more spirit

2 Chronicles 9:3-4
And when the queen of Sheba had seen the wisdom of Solomon, and the house that he had built, And the meat of his table, and the sitting of his servants, and the attendance of his ministers, and their apparel; his cupbearers also, and their apparel; and his ascent by which he went up into the house of the Lord; there was no more spirit in her.

The queen of Sheba came full of questions and disbelief. She packed up all of her skepticism, not leaving an ounce of it behind. In other words, she came carrying questions she was convinced could not be answered to her satisfaction. To her dismay, however, her questions were answered in ways she could not have imagined. She experienced something greater than she ever expected. She anticipated the glory of being justified in her doubt and discovered the greater glory of being proven wrong. It wasn't too good to be true and she now knew it for herself. It wasn't worse than everyone was saying, it was better than she could have ever imagined. As a result, she had no more spirit in her. That spirit of smug, arrogant unbelief that she had packed so carefully before her trip began would be abandoned and not brought back home. Now she had no options left other than to believe what she had seen and heard, or to walk away from it knowing that when she did, it wasn't because Solomon had been found lacking, but because she had been. She confessed the fullness outside herself that she had found and repented of her emptiness. She abandoned her abundant unbelief and the riches of her cocksuredness for the sake of believing.

Matthew 12:42
The queen of the south shall rise up in the judgment with this generation, and shall condemn it: for she came from the uttermost parts of the earth to hear the wisdom of Solomon; and, behold, a greater than Solomon is here.

Have you approached Jesus with a handful of questions and a head full of discontent and unbelief. Come and see. Jesus is a better Solomon. He is wisdom incarnate. His provision is more extravagant. His household better ran. His answers more satisfying and His presence more extraordinary. If you seek Him, you will not find Him wanting. And if you see Him, you cannot walk away without knowing that the deficiency is not in Him, but in you. May seeing Him put an end to your spirit, just like Solomon's did to the Queen of Sheba, so that in believing in Him, you may receive a new spirit.